A.P.G.

I have noticed a lot in my walk with Christ that I have often doubted his word. I have often doubted his grace. I have often doubted his voice. I have often doubted his miracles. I have often doubted his power. I have often doubted his love. I have often doubted his leaders. I often doubt myself. I feel like a huge fake! I often don't feel God. I often don't listen to God. I often don't read his word. I have a deep wound not yet healed. I have a wound that needs to be treated. I have a wound deep inside my soul, holding me back from engaging fully into the fight. I actual have a few wounds that I have not addressed yet in my life. I have wounds that are weighing my heart down. John Eldridge says the wound(s) I have are caused by my father, but others contributed as well. I need to stop being two different people. I need to be that REVOLUTIONARY I so often claim to be. I need to take ALL my fig-leaves off a be fully exposed with my wounds. Lord, help me into my wounds. Help to find that person or persons that I can resort to in times of pain. I just need to come clean-completely. satan has had grip on me far too long now. Jesus Christ is my king and I need to take his word for it. I need not be isolated anymore. I am becoming free...slowly, but I am becoming free.